Well, today went to Alexandra Hospital with Sijun and her bro. After that, went to 'his' house to take back my slippers. Actually, wann see his dog derrs. But too bad, he slping. Initially, don wish to go up also. It brings back sho much memories that it hurts. The staircase, the corridoor, the pathway, etc.. Sho sho much memories~ I thought that i'll be brave. Too bad. I cried.. It really hurts to be so near him, yet there's nth i can do about him~ Do you people understand this kinda feeling? I really miss him.. I still wish to love him. But sometimes, hiding my feelings will be better. I don wish to complicate things anymore. It took him sho long to talk to miiee. I don wish to destroy anything anymore. It still sucks big time that he's not here by my side. Why does it have to be this way? Hurt another person who loves miiee sho much jux for 'him'. I know. I'm selfish to leave Mr. E jux bcos i still cant forget 'him'. But, what more can i do?? It's unfair to lead him on. & i don wish to let myself down too. This time round, it really ish a big impact on miiee. I no longer trust in guys de words. Ppl out there, it's nort that i don trust in you all. It takes time. I really need lotsa lotsa time. Don bother to wait for miiee. Deep down in my heart, there has always been a special 'him'. Now and Forever, 'he' shall be in my heart. Even though i may never get the chance to be back with 'him', he still stands a place in my heart. & i mean it. He's the first guy who taught miiee how to love. & i guess i will never stop my love for him. Perhaps i may get into a new relationship. Perhaps i may jux move on. But for now, i still still hearts him loads. Still missing. Still loving. Still holding some faith. Even if he only has got 0.00001 % de feel, i can survive on that percentage. Emotions very mixed up today. Keep having the urge to cry. But i won't. Don wanna bother 'him' with my tears anymore. Don ever wish to hurt him anymore. Jux wann him to be happy. I dare say. He's the one that i WAN to get married with. Though it might seem naive to talk about marriage at this kinda age, i meant what i've said. WE LIVE BY FAITH, NOT BY SIGHT. Thats all for today, i guess.. Hais~
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